"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater: So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it." ~ Isaiah 55: 8-11


Lions and Tigers and Bears... Oh My!

Day 7, Tuesday: The thing(s) you're most afraid of

Fear doesn't seem to be as complicated when you're a child.

Sometimes I am very overcome with irrational fears, usually involving Jeff and the kids. I never knew fears like this before I had my little family. I don't like them to go anywhere without me in case something happens. If anything did happen, I would want us to be together. And if they do and I don't hear from them by the time I think they should be back, I start fearing the worst.

With the internet and the news, and the over reporting of horrific things happening in every corner of our country, I feel so inundated by all the heart-wrenching tragedies that seem to be constantly occurring. I fear losing them, and I fear them losing me. I cannot and do not want to imagine the horror of it. Sometimes it feels very overwhelming. And when it does, I just try to hug them more, and trust more that we will be safe. And together.

They say God never gives us more than we can bear, and I believe in God with all my heart. And I pray (plead) a lot that God never tests me in that way. Which I feel guilty about... is it wrong to hope that, or pray for that?

If so, then I know God forgives that in me. I just have to keep trusting as much as I can.

1 comment:

Vickie Z said...

Oh Missy...totally been there and totally done that!! You can't help but pray for things to be okay!


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